There are so many things in life that will give us drive, direction, motivation, etc. For me there is none more powerful then the yearning to connect. A connection that is so deep and gripping that many fail to properly explain the painful nature that it is. Once, a glimmer is tasted, the sensation haunts you and lingers in your heart, waiting for you to enact upon it, make a drive for it, sacrifice yourself for it. The feeling rips you up inside and the desire continues to burn, through all the obstacles and abstract thoughts you may have that try to take your mind away from it.

Music, has a way of doing this to me. There are many great musicians, many great songs, but only a few are able to convey through sound the feelings of the heart, the soul, and gripping emotion of the moment. Sound, pure and simple in design. A stimuli that effects us at it's deepest levels, upon which I believe light can only be an accompaniment to. A masterfully combine grouping of sounds can bring me back in time, create a new memory, show me a possible future, take me to a place that has always been in my dreams, endless possibilites. The heartbeat of my thoughts and the fuel for my creativity and passions in life. Music fills me with so much joy, yet it's only just the beginning.

My heart continues to yearn for more, a never ending desire to connect. At one point in life I believed this to be a desire of the flesh. To experience life on a physical level, to feel the intimacy of the flesh with another person, the touch and physical contact of skin. To feel the warmth of another body, and the embrace of another person to feel a sense of security, trust, and understanding. Stories past will tell of the magnificence that is the connection we feel of the flesh. Raw and natural, free of the bounderies that dictate how we are to view the world. The only thing left being the revealed self, in a moment of unashamed sensation. Two becoming one, mutually yearning to connect. To know that the one you share this moment with is also wanting to connect, make the sensation that much more achingly yearning, painful almost. Hearts crying out to connect, in the hopes of feeling a sense of completion through the physical embrace of the other. A brushing touch of bare skin. The glance of eyes for a momentary connection that stop time. The grasp of the hands you yearn for, an embrace of arms and body that bring a gentle soothing and fluttering of the heart. Palpitations that wave through each other and cause us to wonder and question, 'Is this the way to the connection that I seek?'

The connection that can be gained from the physical can only take one so far. The relationship of that person needs to be a key element....

Sleep beckons me, perhaps more next time. g'nite brain

-peace